If your character had one thing to say to their parents before they died, what would it be? (Janet)
//I don’t know if this is before my muse, or their parents die, but I guess it works both ways.
There are a lot of things Janet wishes she could have, or would have told her mother before she died, and things she wishes her mother might have told her. Janet had never been as much like Melisande as she had her father, and there are times she regrets not spending more time with her mother.
In hindsight, Janet wishes she could apologize for the way things went, and the way she left home. There’s a part of Janet that I think, resents her mother for dying, because she had been a neutral point, for as stubborn as Ra’s and Janet were, Melisande had always been able to get them to talk. She had been human in a way that Ra’s had lost, and Janet had never quite been as naturally.
Her father is more complex. There’s more anger there; they had not parted on the best terms, and they had always been too alike. And the truth is, she does die, and nothing is resolved between them. It’s only when he brings her back that things slowly start to get better. In future, she wants to make sure that he knows that she does love him, and that she understands better now why he did what he did, and why he is like he is. (There are days she thinks that her father was a better parent than she was).
She wants to repair the relationship between them most days. Resentment and strained relationships could be fixed, and he was her father in the end. He was some of the little family she had.
She left not because she hated him, but because they were too similar, and yet not similar enough. He had drawn away from her and Talia in the wake of Melisande’s death, and they had done nothing but fight for months. Leaving had been the best choice, but it had never been hatred (she still carried the throwing knives he gave her, and she makes sure to keep them in pristine condition. they were the best she’d ever found and not even the anger she carried had been enough for her to get rid of them out of spite).